Starting over.................

WOW!!!  I think that is all I can say.... so much has happened and changed since the last post. We are living in Montana now. Love it up here, not so much in the winter but oh well I'll deal with it!! I  didn't finish or even do well with my last attempt to do the C25K and I so much has changed in our lives that I don't even know where to start. So I will just say that I am 36 years old, I weigh 242 lbs and am mom to 4 great boys and I work in in-home health care. I am going to start training for my very first Warrior Dash on July 1, 2013. There is one in Oregon in Sept and one in Northern Cali in October I want to be at one of them. I don't care if my time sucks and how much I hurt, I just want to finish it. I would also like to be able to do a 5k race sometime this fall. My ultimate goal is a Tough Mudder in Vegas next year. This year it was in Beatty so not sure where in NV it will be but I'll be there with bells on (well actually with my ninja suit with a bunny on the front (TEAM: Fluffy Ninja's) LOL) I'm hoping that by having an actual goal and date and a great cause to boot will keep me going and keep me on track. Also I am doing this in grand moo ma's name....if she can beat cancer's butt then I should be able to beat my own self doubts right??? At first I will just focus on doing the C25K and strength training and keeping track of my food via myfitnesspal. Later on I will start seriously watching my caloric intake and such but I think that I need to develop the habit of tracking before I start focusing on calorie counting too.....don't wanna overdo it right away. I want to be able to do this and show my family and friends that I CAN finish what I start and I am the one in charge of my life!!

Yeah I suck!! But definately trying again.

Yeah well "LIFE" has definitely changed for us and I have not kept to my goals at all!! We now have both of my nieces for the rest of the school year. I am also home schooling one of the girls and my oldest son's best friend, I will also be homeschooling my oldest (17) after he moves back home from  spending a year with his father. I also am trying to get a job. So needless to say our lives are a bit hectic. I know, I know, no excuse right?!?!?  I am also having some health issues going on right now so a call to the doctor tomorrow is in order. My goal is a weight loss of 100 pounds in a year. We took christmas pictures today and I look so horrible. I am 261lbs that is the most I have EVER weighted in my life. I want to look smoking hot in our Christmas photos next year. I am going to start this off with keeping my caloric intake between 1800~2000 a day. I know that as I loose weight I will have to adjust this amount but for now it will provide enough of a deficit that I should see some weight loss. I am also contemplating getting the Zumba videos, still not sure yet though, gotta watch our pennies ya know. Anyways I am going to strive to have at least 30 minutes of activity EVERY DAY!! I also tried the C25K and at this time I'm just not ready for that, I do plan on implementing it later on though. Anyways, I gotta get things going so wish me luck and I will try to blog here way more often too!!

The beginning....

Ok so today I have made a huge decision in my life and that is to get busy living!!! I need to make some changes, not just for my family, whom I love with no end, but for myself. I need to find a path in life that makes ME happy, not one that is comfortable for everyone else. I am going to officially start my "Couch 2 5k" journey on Monday. I want to lose 100lbs. by next year. I know it won't be easy, but I HAVE to do this. I need to be healthier and happier and it seems that the weight just keeps packing on not going off, so things have to change. I am also going to find a program near me and start going back to school for something that I started almost 10 years ago. I want to be a medical assistant. I started on the path of nursing but after being so sick last year and spending so much time in the hospital I have decided that nursing is a very intense job and I don't want to be married to my job but I do want to enjoy my job and I do want to help people and I love the health care field so this seems to be a happy medium for me. At least for the time being....So that's 3 rather large goals I have for the next year. I am sure more will come along as the time goes by, but these are the main ones I want to achieve. Oh and to also try and keep up this blog thing at least a couple times a week. I will post again on Monday after my first official c25k day. Also need to clean up the eating issue but will tackle one thing at a time so as to not overwhelm myself!!!